After Christmas glow

Well we survived another Christmas. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.  I was afraid this one would be hard because I was very much looking forward to being pregnant and buying a gift for my little bean.  Seeing Em on Christmas morning made it bearable.  She loved all the magical things Santa did and Christmas is just more fun through the eyes of a child.  The best part of it all?  It snowed here, around 4 inches.  It was too cold to go play in it for long, but we got a few minutes of fun in the snow on our White Christmas. 

This is the most snow she has see since she was around 1!  She's been asking to make snow angels for 2 years now!  So glad she got to do this on Christmas.  It was pretty magical!

In more depressing news...another month not being pregnant.  I'm slowly learning to deal with it and be patient again.  The bitterness and anger is subsiding a little.  I keep telling myself its going to happen when its supposed to, I shouldn't rush it, God has a plan.  But sometimes I really get tired of myself saying this over and over...month after month.  2013 is going to be a good year, I can feel it!  I feel like I have a whole list of resolutions to work on...maybe I'll start a whole new blog for that venture so I can keep myself in check...

Innocence of a 4 year old

This has been a rough week.  Seems like everyone I know is getting pregnant.  I don't wish them to not be pregnant. Its just hard when you see so many people who had no desire to be pg are, yet I'd give anything to  be, and seems I can't.  Also isn't helping that I am late, have sore boobs, yet the couple of tests I have taken are negative. At this point I just wish my monthly friend would show up and be done all ready.
Em keeps talking about her baby sister.  It's kinda freaking me out.  I keep telling her she may not have a baby sis/bro at all or she may end up with a brother.  She insists she is going to have a baby sister.  Maybe I need to take a cue from her innocence and keep the faith!

On a positive note all my grades are in, I ended up with 3 As and a C.  That C is probably the grade I am most proud of.  I started out Cost Accting with a  43% on the first test and the fact I brought that up to a C with only 3 tests makes me happy because that isn't an easy class! And did I mention that the 2nd week of class I had a missed miscarriage and still kept going to class?  Yeah I'm either insane or hardcore...but its over now

It has been a while...

Can't believe how long it has been since I blogged...and how much has happened since then.  As always I tend to turn to blogging when I'm having a rough time.  Putting thoughts on paper the computer helps me deal with them.  Right now is no exception.  I think I'm going to devote more time to blogging and instead of waiting until the new year I'm going to start now.  No time like the present huh? And who isn't interested in the mad ravings of a full time college student/mother/Army wife?

A lot has happened since the last time I wrote.  I lost a best friend bc of a completely absurd accusation with no foundation whatsoever, went to Vegas for an adult vacation, moved to Oklahoma, started a new college, sent my little girl off to her first daycare/preschool, started a new endeavor by selling 31, got pregnant, said goodbye to my little bean at almost 10 wks, had my "baby" turn 4 and finished the semester anyway with 3 As, and a possible B/C (grades aren't posted yet).  Thats just the "highlights" really.  And that's where we are now...

I have just finished my first semester at Cameron U.  The semester got off to a rocky start and I'm just proud of myself for finishing and passing all my classes.  The fact that I got As in 3/4 of my classes is a fact I am very proud of.  Still waiting on the grade for Cost Accounting to be posted though...ugh.

I have so much I want to type right now, but I'm just not sure I am ready to share those feelings with the whole world, or the few people who read my blog...so you must wait til next time