Time for the deployment slap in the face

Well my cord has been ordered, so now I'm on the "monster laptop".  It's only a 14.1" but geez after a netbook this thing is a like a desktop.

Tom leaves very early Saturday morning for NTC.  The big training for deployment.  Soooo not looking forward to this.  A month without him is hard enough, but now I have to try to explain to my almost 2 year old that daddy is gone to work for a very long time.  To me NTC is the slap in the face that deployment is quickly approaching.  He'll get back sometime the weekend before Thanksgiving, then it's a month til leave followed by 3 wks in MO, a month home, then it's time to say good-bye for a whole year again.

I can't believe we are gearing up for our 3rd deployment.  I remember way back when we were first married we talk about when he was in the guard, and how I didn't think I could handle him being in the military bc I couldn't ever survive a deployment.  7 years later here we are #3 in 5 years...ugh.  I'm pretty sure this is going to be the hardest one yet.  They don't get easier as they go, they just get different.  The first one was just me, which was hard, but I just went to MO a lot, and took a lot of classes.  The 2nd was hard bc I was a single parent with a newborn, but she kept me very busy and neither her nor Tom got attached to each other very much.  This time however, these 2 are gonna have to be pulled away from each other.  I can't explain to her how long he's gonna be gone, she has no concept of time.  Tom will have to say good-bye to TWO people he loves.  I've already decided I'm gonna be the glue that holds this family together emotionally.  That's a pretty big job, and being that I'm pretty emotional myself, I hope I'm up for it.

Well I feel better getting that off my mind...