...and I hope you're wishing on that same bright star

We went to Vero's tonight for a halloween party with her family and had an awesome time.  I love my girls!  When I got home and put Em to bed I got really depressed though.  I was wishing Tom could have seen Em all dressed up and having a great time showing off.  It made me feel really guilty bc again he is missing a holiday with her.  He has yet to spend a Halloween with his lil girl.  I know my husband, and he would get just as excited to dress her up and parade her around as I do.  Sometimes I think I shouldn't do things when he can't be here, but that's not fair to Em.  I can't put our lives on hold bc he's gone, and doesn't want us to.  I just wish he could be here to have fun with us too.  And I wish I could say, "oh well, there is always next year".  Unfortunately, he won't be here then either.  He'll be even further away at that time.  Does the guilt ever go away?  Will my husband ever get to enjoy dressing up with his girl for Halloween?